For years I was looking forward to December 21st, 2012. I didn’t buy into the end of the world idea. I was mostly excited to experience one big new cycle. It is not every day that I get to celebrate a holiday that comes once in 5,000 or so years.
I set the intention for a spiritual party that day and to my joy, my friend Nancy Rebecca at IntiutiveMind.org decided to host a group reading and party that day.
On the day of the party, I was extra excited. Not only was I going to celebrate the New Cycle of human awakening. I was finally going to do a fire ceremony. I have always wanted to try a fire ceremony.
It was a cold December night. Nancy had us write on pieces of paper and then tie them on some sticks. On one piece of paper, what we wanted to give up. On the other stick of paper, what we wanted to bring forth.
I asked my inner being, which I do at times like these, “What should I write on the paper?” The answer was simple. On the thing to give up, “Little i” and on the thing to bring in “Big I”
“i” being all of the ways in my life that I remain small. The me that makes the decisions that are not empowering. The i, who eats too much, parties too much, doesn’t do what I say I am going to do, doesn’t finish what he starts and all that jazz.
“I” being the person that makes empowering decision. The one who is vulnerable and loves more than the mind can think possible. The person who finishes what he starts, eats healthy, trusts and surrenders into the universe.
As I walked to the fire, I put in the little “i” stick and imagined the small me burning away. I put in the big “I” stick into the crackling fire and watched as I began to embrace my higher self and a higher form of living.
Have I been perfect since then? No, of course not. This is a constant work, of letting go of the things that do not serve me and embracing the things that do. One of my Satyen Raja, states that it takes a master eight seconds to come back to love. That is my goal. For it to take eight seconds for me to start going down little i, to return myself to being the big I that I know that I can be.
What about your little “i” self are you willing to give up? Just committing to one, right now for the next eight hours can spark change. Committing longer will create a larger effect.
What can you do right now to move closer to your BIG “I”? When you connect to your higher self, and live through inspiration, that is when miracles will happen. Your BIG “I” is you being guided by your inner self and tapping into your amazing power. Embrace your BIG “I” and be the best you that you can be.
I wrote a chapter in “Power to Change” that will help you embrace and live your BIG I.